Giselle,

All I can say is that you're not alone in that. My childhood differs quite greatly from yours, though I can say that, as years go by, something has evolved into a new, heavier kind of thing enclosing about me. I, too, feel that cloak of emptiness which is just about you. It's taking over me and setting me apart from the world. All the same, I don't know whether it is this empty shade or me, or us. Maybe we grow together as one single thing. And, whereas it's your childhood that is coming back to you, mine is hanging by a thread. I used to like it. I think that is our chief difference, even though we now can understand each other perfectly well. That darkness, that unlight, has always been within myself, it has just grown bigger and taken me by force. Every day I grow knowing that I was meant to be alone, just as much as you do. But I don't think you're going invisible. You're going visible, but not to them. It may be a frightening feeling, but there's not much we can do about it. I've been trying to find a way out for years but I haven't seen the slightest sign. I'm keeping up with it, but I know it can get worse.

You're not gonna die, cuz I don't wanna loose you. I'm always there, or else I aways try to be there, even though visible I am not. Keep in touch, don't let all this burden you alone.

César

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I dunno what to say. Thanks for saving me.